^End of the Road^

Nothing had changed since i'm back home..everything are as were i left..been helping out at my dad's place this couple of nights..i really enjoyed there as i can be who i am..but still not getting much sleep of late..really hope things will get better..need some time to think what my next move is..hopefully i can meet up with some friends to clear my head..but everybody are busy with their routine..everything is so mixed up..ARRGGHHH !!!!

*Lovebug*

OH MY GOAT !!! IT'S 9AM AND I'M STILL WIDE AWAKE!! thanks to the baritas for my special four shot of espresso. I ended up watching National Treasure part 1..now scrolling to look for part 2..Gosh, i can never get bored watching that movie million of times. Just imagine watching movie outside of Starbucks all morning chilling..My fingers ARE NUMB !! well, cant afford to go sleep now, it's impossible to sleep now so order another triple shot espresso..seeing that i am regular here, IT'S ON THE HOUSE !!! gosh , i love the people here..could really stay up here forever..I WISH !! it's been unusually long time that i've never done something this crazy for a very long time..well, its my final day here, so i'm ought to do something that will remain in me for future referrance, in short, something to brag about to my friends..haha..thinking back, last year on the final day, i too did something remarkable..i hope things will be better after i'm back down tomorrow. Being Choy San Yeh for the last 14days blessing various people, i hope someone would bless me of eternal happiness in wealth and health..V(^v^)V

Oh yeah, i did a deed this morning, a lady came to me in great desperate to borrow RM 10 from me. Its sad to hear people getting rob up here..Desperate calls for desperate measure..so without any hesistation, i gave in..at last, a sincere smile that i've long for,unlike those that smile after seeing my mask..

-There You'll Be-

well, it finally came, today is the final day. It's almost 6am now and i'm still wide awake. I just finished watching Pearl Harbor, I know its an old movie, but how i wish to serve my country(well, HELL not possible for Malaysia) and die in combat with honor. It really got me thinking how hard back then to face death in the brink of your eyes. At times like these, what you do will define who you are. If compare my current situation, as those warriors who gave their lives, I hope that i can prove my worthy to everybody.

Yesterday work was fun, well, i basically never work at all, because yesterday got this famous My.Fm DJ dude came to do some show, and superb 6 hot models were in the backstage, so my supervisor told us to 'take a walk', end up we took 4hours walk. hahahaha.. so i just did an hour work and off i go. It was fun watching celebrities doing what they do best and able to assist them by having privillage walking up stage. It was real fun, just hoped that my hair wasn't messy, hahaha.. but unfortunately we couldn't get any picture with them since they were very busy with their tight schedule. But overall we had lots of fun screaming, juggling, and laying off work.

Seeing that i only have less than 6 hours to sleep, i better get my rest. Chiao Chiao

#If Tomorrow Never Comes#

3 more days- then it's over, gotta face the reality already. I know rationally i should just give up and face the fact, but i decided to give myself another try. Well, love makes us do stupid things right? so why not me? I really want us to sit and talk about it. Not leaving things with question marks. Just hope that she is willing to hear me out.

Anyway, my brother and his friend came up to accompany me. Really appreciate his care to come all the way to console me after knowing that i'm not doing really well up here..Thanks Bro!! Well, i did pay back by spending you guys right? so fair trade lar!! hahaha.. Just a little disappointed that i made you guys restrained from going in the casino..paiseh..wait another 3months ya..

Well, in another 15 hours or so, my house is going to have a rave party, so depress that i couldn't be there to share the joy as it's been a year since everybody is having fun under our one and only roof..Hopefully one of you is smart enough to come up here and get me ya..haha..

Gotta go off now, tomorrow need to wake up and work again, talking about work, this year darn lazy to work, keep skip session, hopefully none of any supervisor notice us skipping..haha..PLEASE COME AND ACCOMPANY ME !! ANYONE??!!!

























Notice the horny mustache ??hahahahaha..

Here I am

Things had been worsen since i came here to Genting. Despite everything that had happened, i realized that i've been handling that fact badly. I've been avoiding that fact and pretending to be happy, but every night before the day ends, i'm deeply hurt. But i have to be strong, get back on track and find my path. I know it's stupid, but GOSH I LOVE HOW AIR SUPPLY EXPRESS LOVE!! been hearing this song very often..here is the lyrics.....

Air Supply - Here I am

Here I am playing with those memories again And just when I thought time had set me free Those thoughts of you keep taunting me Holding you, a feeling I never outgrew Though each and every part of me has tried Only you can fill that space inside So there's no sense pretending My heart it's not mending (Chorus) Just when I thought I was over you And just when I thought I could stand on my own Oh, baby those memories come crashing through And I just can't go on without you On my own I've tried to make the best of it alone I've done everything I can to ease the pain But only you can stop the rain I just can't live without you I miss everything about you (Chorus) Just when I thought I was over you And just when I thought I could stand on my own Oh baby those memories come crashing through And I just can't go on without Go on without It's just no good without you Without you, without you, without you Oh baby, those memories come crashing through And I just can't go on without, you